Tuesday, May 31, 2005
5:03 PM
first of all..it took mi breath away..!!u know..now du de wei has this new song..jia gei wo..listening it over 93.3fm rite now n here i go again....awwwwwwwwwww!!so swwweeeettttt!!!hahahaz..i think 'ni shi wo lao po' by richie ren is very sweet too!!i dunno how come i find so sweet..n no..!!dun say tat im crazy over marriage..simply becoz this will drive mi bonkers..but still..SUPER SWEET!!!:)..awwwwww..:p..poly life is okie la..though i still feel very weird coz practically all the girls in mi class wear makeup while i dun n they do dress up..i cant be bothered much about it..coz i will definitely be late for lessons for half an hour if i try dolling miself up..coz u know im so fussy over mi hair esp..hehez..but also..going to sch onli ma..doll up for wad?rite..hahaz..tats how i stare at the mirror each n every day n walk off to sch..hahaz..hmm..mi lessons..comprise of mostly computer lessons..if not will be communication lessons..quite tired la..not enough slp n yet i still wan watch tv every nite..hahaz..n im realli realli trying to speak in perfect english as mi course requires mi to do so..so..now..i trying..still trying..hahaz..frenz!!dun worrie!!im still the mi!!not ah lian..not bitchy..still trying to act cute every now n then..still laughing loudly n not stopping..kicking mi legs all arnd..:p..oh ya..guess wad..second day of the wk..n i still dun have any homework while others r doing mathsprep!!ahahahaz..:D..okie..i shldnt be so happie..coz mi day ends late..not like some ppl who ends at 12 on every wednesday n friday..*pouts*
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
5:59 PM
2 days in sp..n im already super tired..wads more itz orientation week..cant imagine how life's going to be for mi when lessons start next wk..know y im super tired..imagine..the mi during holidays slps at 12+ wake up at 11+ every single day..then now..every day say wan slp at 11..then go lay mi bed n stuff..11.30..by the time i fall aslp..12+..i wake up at 6.30..had such a tedious journey of 45 mins on mrt..from amk to raffles place then to dover..trying not to close mi eyes..then when i reach sch..not too long later..i will shut down..wadever ppl say i know they r talking..but simply makes no sense to mi..cant absorb at all..today..at least come home earlier..5+..rather than 7+ which i did ytd..then reach home..eat maggie mee..on com..bathe..watch tv..go slp..tada!tats mi day..actualli cant realli believe tat im at sp..coz i dun believe tat i actualli chose poly over jc..since pri sch..ive been saying..no..im definitely going to a jc..by hook or by crook..n now i chose poly..hahaz..wad a joke..now realli tired..going to shut down soon again..but i think i will recover when i watch tv..hahahaz..tml is flag day..going to parkway..at 9..hahaz..by rite is 7.30..but since everyone including mi facs are going to be late..mite as well make it later..then go makan breakfast at mac first..then do flagging..then 2 head back to sp..hahaz..nice facs rite?oh ya..mi class DMC02 won the top class in ytd's orientation games..$30 marche vouchers..n we gave it to our facs..1 each..hahaz..we so ncie rite..but actualli..theres a reason y we keep winning..as aizat(one of mi class facs) says..know who is going to win this game?n y we r going to win..hahaz..:X..but sp..quite fun la..didnt regret choosing a poly..sb..which stands for sch of business is rather happening..n guess wad..they say tat mi course..DMC..diploma in media n communication is the most happening..hahahz..nice rite?DMC rawks..:)..(oh ya..n i realise more ppl r showing the slyvester hand sign..u know..itz the 'i love u' sign without ur thumb pointing out..)n i realise the teachers there..the way they say stuff rite..very vulgar leh..:X..yupz!so far..tats it on poly..oh ya..mi bday..hahaz..thanks everyone for celebrating with mi..izyana..shawn..jun wei..malcolm..shi hui..roy..emily..shu fen..zhen ting..wei long..n dear!think i nv miss anyone out rite?cant realli rmb..like ive said..shutting down le..hahaz..n those who sent mi bday wishes..wei ting..clemence..izyana..zoe..li yun..bee fang..zhen hao..edwin..jason..ehz..forgot le..hahaz..but u know who u r..n the prezzies..izyana..for the bib n brownies..shawn..jun wei..kinho n malcolm for the 3 doggies..n dear for the super nice prezzie..yupz!had a nice bday..though not as memorable as last yr..but nvm la..:)..i think sometimes i too frank la..hahaz..but dun like to lie..:p..oh ya..n this friday i have NO SCHOOL..sp ppl..jealous..?hahaz..:P..oh ya..n i haven go back to zh to collect cert yet..!!hmph..i wan eat tom yam!!
Thursday, May 12, 2005
11:31 AM
a gal's reflection on her past..
in the past..in primary 5..her cme teacher asked the class to write down how mani kids they wan to have in the future..the silly her actualli wrote down 5..the largest no. of children she wans to have in the whole class..when he frenz asked her y she wan to bear so mani..she replied coz tat way there will be much more family warmth..the kids wun feel lonely..but actualli..shes shy to say tat itz a kinda family bliss to her..
in the past..she wld lay on the bed after waking up..looking at the clouds..imagining tat the clouds r some characters in fairy tales..u know..the story she loved most is not cinderella..not snow white n the seven dwarf..but the little mermaid..perhaps itz a different version....the little mermaid tells of a mermaid who is the daughter of the Sea King in the sea..n one day..when she turned fifteen n could rise to the surface of the water as stated by the rules in the sea..she saw a prince..a charming prince in the ship..he was having party..it was love at first sight for her..she had fallen in love with the prince..then..suddenly..one nite..there was a heavy storm..the ship..however strong it is.. could not withstand it..n the ship capsized..the prince was left in the sea..drifting along with the current..unconscious..the kind little mermaid saved him up the shore..then the next day..the prince woke up..the little mermaid..was looking at him from behind..she couldnt appear in front of him..for the tail she had as a mermaid mite scare him away..the little mermaid went to the witch in the sea..she wanted to appear as human form in front of the prince..hoping tat the prince would then be able to fall in love with her..the witch agreed..but with a condition tat she would exchange her beautiful voice for her legs..which would mean tat losing her tail..she could no longer be a mermaid..she will be separated from her family..n tat if she could not get the prince's love n be the one whom he is to be married to..she would have to die..she agreed..though all her other sisters couldnt understand y she did so..then..she appeared in front of the prince..they spent several days happily together..those days were the happiest moments in her entire life..she had wanted so much to tell him tat she was the one who saved him up to the shore..but she couldnt..she lost her voice..one day..the prince heard of a princess tat saved her..n tat it was his parents' wishes for him to visit her..the prince himself..too..wanted to go n have a look for himself..the mermaid agreed to let him go..then..after so mani million years to her..he had finalli returned..but..he had brought along an announcement too..tat he would have to marry the princess..becoz she saved his life..the little mermaid was so depressed..but yet..helpless..she remembered the witch warning..tat if she couldnt get the prince's love..she would have to return to the sea as foam..n die..her sisters tried to help her..they gave her a sharp knife..tat she would have to stab the knife into his heart on the nite whereby it was their wedding day..in return for her life..tat nite..the mermaid went to his room..she saw him on the bed..along with the princess sleeping soundly..as she wanted to raise the knife to stab it into his heart..she realised she could not do it..n the next day..foams formed in the sea..she died..
this was her favourite story..n for the first time in her life..she felt so touched by the story..she didnt cry..realli didnt..but up till this date..she still remembered the last picture in the book..foams..bubbles in the sea
in the past..she had yearned to live in a bustling city when she grow up..with technology so modern..materialistic u can say wad she was at tat point of time..she tot tat with those kinda lifestyle..she could then live happily..
in the past..she yearned for independence..to be able to handle things alone..to become a strong career women..
be it lawyer or doctor..she had nv wanted to be a housewife..taking care of 5 children..her parents couldnt give her much freedom..for they said tat she was too trusting..she trusted ppl arnd her too much tat she didnt know tat there r some who r bad ppl as they say..
in the past..the country she had wanted to go most is america..becoz of disneyland..hahaz..sounds like a kid..but for mani mani mani times..she had pestered her dad to take her to america..her mom refused to go..coz she was afraid of the long hours tat had to be spent on the plane..n so..she couldnt go too..becoz tat time she was still a kid..n had to share passport with her mom..so meaning to say..where ever she goes..her mom has to be with her..
tat was in the past..she had tot tat things in the world..r so simple..
now..she had grown up..she didnt wan to have 5 children..firstly..coz she is afraid of the pain..but also..she had understood more things..having a kid is not easy..money n responsibility is needed..things had seemed to become more complicated..itz not tat she dun wan to take up the responsibility..itz tat shes afraid there will not be enough money to support the children..she didnt wan them to live in hardship with her..
now..her favourite story still didnt change..but the kinda lifestyle she was looking forward to had changed..she didnt wan to be complicated..coz she realised n tot tat the world is simply too complicated..she onli wanted to remain simple n ordinary..she didnt wan to live in a bustling city anymore..her definition of happiness now..is not tat onli living in a bustling city could bring happiness..but juz with her frenz..her loved ones arnd..even in a countryside..where lifestyle is so simple..tat could then bring out the true happiness..she had understood smth..money could not buy everything..
now..it juz isnt tat she didnt wan to be independent..she does..but with the support of her frenz n loved ones..she didnt wan to be a strong career woman le..coz she thinks tat being a career woman mite lead to neglection to her children..money is not the entire happiness..when she had earned enough money to raise the children..she will wan to settle down as a housewife..seeing her kids grow up..is also a form of happiness to her..:)
now..the country she wan to go most is paris..even if it means tat she has to go there alone..even if she means tat she had to live in one small corner of paris..coz..in a way..she thinks tat paris is the place filled with romance..n love..even if shes alone..she can also feel the love surrounded by her..
she nv wanted to have the feeling of being alone..but she didnt like the crowds..coz in crowds..she will get headache..n though shes in crowds..she felt so alone..so empty..n she feels like theres someone out there in the crowds who is also feeling the same way as she does..
maybe in the past..as a kid..she had already understood tat wad u sow is not wad u get..but she still stubbonly believes tat if u realli realli realli realli try hard enough..with determination..someday god will juz see it n let u have wad u wan..n tats the reason y she nv gives up easily..she cant..realli cant..in a way or another..to her..she will be thinking wad is itz the last n onli obstacle left..n tat god wans her to go thru all these before she can have wad she wans..yes..she love fairytales with happie endings..but yet those werent her favourite tales..as she grew up..she began to understand herself better..the greatest love of all..to her..is not having to live happily together always with her loved ones..yes..she hopes for tat to happen..but wad she feels is the greatest love of all..is the love tat would make someone sacrifice something becoz of another person..yea..tats the reason behind y her favourite story is the little mermaid..n her favourite movies r coyote ugly,moulin rouge,turn left turn rite and windstruck..coz everyone of them..sacrificed smth for their loved ones..be it little things or major ones..:)..
she nv thinks tat wad she has done..has to be known..tats y certain things she do..when itz for a good cause..n ppl misunderstood it as a bad one..she didnt correct them..shes afraid of saying out her true feelings sometimes..juz like in primary 5 wad she told her classmates is actualli different from wad she actualli thinks..dun ask her y shes afraid..coz she doesnt realli know..she thinks tat being afraid of smth doesnt need a reason..juz like loving smth doesnt need a reason too..u may say shes timid..shes afraid of being alone..loneliness..she cant seem to have faith building up in herself n yet she can have faith in others..shes afraid tat there will be this someone..or some ppl who knows her so well tat without her saying out..they actualli know wad shes thinking n feeling..she doesnt know how to express herself well..shes not a person who can express her true feelings face to face..shes not gd with words..she cries very easily..she is also touched very easily..shes very emotional..she loves burying herself in some bk..some movie..some tv show..some song..n make her feel tat there is still love existing in this world..she hates it when ppl lie to her n make her feel tat shes the onli one on earth who dunno wads happpening..she believes tat with happiness..sadness..imperfection..selfishness..will tag along..god is fair..as they always say..she also believes tat heaven exists..angels too..sometimes she will juz imagine tat she also has a fairy god mother n angels with her..though shes a free thinker..dunno if there is ever a god existing..she gradually understands wad it means when they say 'a gal can forgive but nv forget..a guy can forget but nv forgive..'she thinks a lot on mani simple stuff..but trying not to think about sad stuff tat will eventually make herself very miserable in the end..she is like every other gal..xi huan mei hao de dong xi..xi huan bei ren zhen xi..teng ai de gan jue..chocs..sweets..flowers..soft toys..cute n nice stuff..sunrise..sunsets..starts..nite views..promises..but to her..if promises were meant to be broken..then she dun wan any to be ever made to her again..
she grew up le..still growing up..perhaps some things have changed..some perspectives..some tots of hers..but she wans to be who she is..who she realli is..she juz a gal..juz a snow_liker..:)
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
1:00 PM
IM BORED!!!i cant stand it!!!mi mood is getting bad again!im sick of staring at the com each n every other day either playing pool or playing bridge..n worse still..i keep losing!!argh!!im bored im bored im bored im bored!!can someone juz pull mi out from the boredom??im going bonkers with mi horrendous..terrible mood!!itz driving mi crazy!
Monday, May 09, 2005
11:49 AM
knew a nice song recently..the melody is nice..the lyrics r quite touching also..rick price..heaven knows..:)
She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's so far away
It just keeps gettin' stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows
Friday, May 06, 2005
10:37 AM
backie!hmm..chalet was fun..at first met up with ming yang wei ting n zhen ming to buy zoe's prezzie..n in the end we ended up buying 2 sports bra for her..1 purple 1 orange..hahaz..the brand is fun fit..hope she likes them..itz the way she wans them to be in..hahaz..:X..then later go back chalet..mi n wei ting occupied 1 bed..then zhen ming occupied the other..leaving ming yang with none n in the end he went downstairs to watch tv..n when i was finalli falling aslp in the cold cold room without any blanket coz i let wei ting have it..i suddenly heard noises..a sound of blowing bubbles..n the sound of snoring..wei ting was blowing bubbles with her mouth n zhen ming was snoring..when they r aslp!!n they did it with so much cooperation n correct timing juz when i was about to fall aslp..-.-"..in the end..laid there for quite a while..then got up coz it was too cold..then went down to watch tv..then the rest came..zoe yi zhin william lin seng aw hot li yun kok wai..then stayed in the room..played bridge..finalli learnt how to play le!!hahaz..but im not a pro..hahaz..then went down..sin yee emily n yu cui came..then played piggy..itz kinda childish..hahaz..but fun..hahaz..emily is the one who reacted the slowest..then yu cui blur blur de..hahahz..then i went home le lor..yupz..then going shopping later with mi mama..wanna get mi stuff asap..then have family dinner at little india..hmm..dear..these few nitez have been talking..u still got anymore u wanna say ma?i know things havent been going much smoothly for us..i believe they will turn out better de..will de k?have faith in ourself k..?'itz not always butterflies, itz compromise tat moves us along..'..there will be ups n downs in a relationship..n though our path seemed so tedious..long..tiring..tough..thankfully we r not knocked down by these probs..actualli..about wad we talk about last nite..the qns u asked mi whose on higher priority..to mi..i think itz realli u..fan kai xin li hua lai jiang..but..i seemed not to be able to act like wad i said though i know itz u..actualli..all along ive been very scared tat i will get hurt again..tats y even subconsciously..ive been trying to protect miself..tats y sometimes will hurt u..i realli didnt know wad i did the other day made u so upset..wun neglect u again le..every sad stuff will get past us de..they will be over de..okie..?dun worry..im still trying to help u recover ur feelings..we can get past all these de..realli..xiang xing wo men ke yi yi qi zuo dao..okie?let us jia you together..:)
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
11:30 AM
mi sms is going to bomb soon in another 140 smses..waiting for the 6th to come sooner..so..i say here first..those going for chalet tml..go to tanah merah mrt first..then call either mi zoe or bee fang can le..then we tell u how to meet us there k?whew..but kinda looking forward to the chalet tml..lalaz..hahaz..think itz going to be fun..finalli after dunno how mani million yrs can get us all gathered together again!!hahaz..i miss our crapping days so much!!hahaz..oh ya..so far..mi zoe li yun bee fang wei ting yi zhin sin yee yu cui emiliy xin yu going..william samuel hong jin not confirm..but since xin yu is going..william shld be going..then maybe he go persuade mervyn to go..then mervyn will go persuade nick.........n here i go again..hahaz..zoe says ive very 'good linkage'..hahaz..which sounds like -.-" to her..but now..at least not so sianz le..more ppl going..n the best of all our clique is going!!yay..hahaz..but too bad yana cant make it..hahaz..nvm..had fun with our gals shopping spree some time ago..hahaz..n i think i still wanna shop for smth..but i still haven buy bag n stuff!!think im going to get them this friday..i cant wait for chalet to come quickly!!:D..but the worse thing is..all of us r going broke before chalet..so after chalet..we will be dead broke..oH nO!!oh ya..i cant forget wad zoe said ytd..tat she doesnt wanna lose someone..ehz..not the someone as in her someone..like mi daddie..but someone else..coz hez too gd..hahaz..:P
Monday, May 02, 2005
11:20 AM
cant slp..cant slp..still cant slp..kinda had a nice dream n a nitemare..but when i woke up after the nice dream..back to reality..then realised it wasnt nice at all..by rite shld be going out today de..either with parents or aunt..but rejected both coz dun feel like going out..or actualli not..coz feel like doing smth but afraid tat will drive someone crazy again..had some heartfelt feelings a few days ago..dunno is there such a thing as heartfelt feelings..hmm..some deep feelings ba..very deep in fact..but..juz nv say out..coz..i dunno leh..feel tat itz so deep..tat no words can describe it?say le..ppl also dun realli understand..?shy..?pai seh..?hmm..though itz not the first time ive felt tat..but pai seh coz..hmmm..nvm..
